There’s Nothing Funny about being SA’ed at a Comedy Show

I was working a comedy show at an arena and it was very dark and very hard to see. As I was standing at my post, a manager came and made small talk with me. After 10 minutes of talking he kept moving closer and closer until he was right next to me. At this point he started flirting and complementing me and all I did was laugh uncomfortably and say thank you. He moved behind me and started whispering sexual things in my ear whilst groping me inappropriately, kissing my neck, and licking my ear. I had told him to stop but he just said “ It’s okay I know you like it, big girls need love too”. I was frozen in my spot scared to move and was silently praying someone would see us but I knew it wasn’t going to happen because it was so dark. Right as he started grinding on me and was about to put his hands all the way in my Bra, a lady walked from around the corner and he stopped. He continued to do everything else except grope and grind on me and after 5 minutes another manger walked past and told us to separate and pulled me to the side and asked if I had just been sexually assaulted and I said Yes. After a while another manger came and I wrote up a written report on what happened and after reading it he said that there was nothing he could do about it because I didn’t stop him from flirting with me and I didn’t stop him or walked away from him when he started touching me. He said that I should’ve just said no or came to tell somebody when he first started instead of letting him touch me and that it seemed like I wanted him to continue and that I must’ve liked it. I left work that night hurt, confused, and disgusted with myself. I kept telling myself he was right and that I deserved it because I never stopped him. I was embarrassed to show my face there again and scared to ever see him again so the next morning I sent an email to head of the company and HR telling them what happened and that I was resigning. It’s been almost a year and to this day my assaulter still works there and he even got promoted. I seen him a couple months ago and it didn’t seem like he recognized me, while I on the other hand will never forget his face, his voice, and the way his hands felt on me in the most disgusting way possible. Almost a year has passed and I understand that I didn’t deserve what happened to me and that things gets better with time.